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  <title>From The Cradle To The Grave</title>
  <subtitle>The Chronicles of the worst kind of kid</subtitle>
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    <name>Dustin Wallace</name>
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  <updated>2009-07-18T03:32:13Z</updated>
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    <title>Best Of The Situation</title>
    <published>2009-07-18T03:20:41Z</published>
    <updated>2009-07-18T03:32:13Z</updated>
    <content type="html">So....pre-production week ends tomorrow.&lt;br /&gt;we will go demo out the new songs&lt;br /&gt;then home...&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Downside:&lt;br /&gt;Don't get to hang with the boys every day&lt;br /&gt;Have to deal with being home&lt;br /&gt;Not On Tour&lt;br /&gt;Have to figure out what's wrong with my car&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Upside:&lt;br /&gt;Get to go back to work at the hospital&lt;br /&gt;get to ride my bike every day&lt;br /&gt;get to see/hang out with/ride with Dean&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;My life is fuckin rad.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;August we leave to record at Play/Work for the EP coming out on Vinyl&lt;br /&gt;Then right afterwards we leave for our first national tour...&lt;br /&gt;Unstoppable</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:burningmissive:80846</id>
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    <title>Not That I Write Here Often</title>
    <published>2009-06-10T06:33:19Z</published>
    <updated>2009-06-10T06:33:19Z</updated>
    <content type="html">&lt;a href="http://pics.livejournal.com/burningmissive/pic/00002qc5/"&gt;&lt;img src="http://pics.livejournal.com/burningmissive/pic/00002qc5/s320x240" width="320" height="213" border="0" /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Thursday I head out on tour with four of my best friends in the world.&lt;br /&gt;My life is better than just about anyone I can think of.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Bye gang,&lt;br /&gt;Dustin</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:burningmissive:80390</id>
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    <title>I work towards the goals that I set...</title>
    <published>2009-04-16T11:25:52Z</published>
    <updated>2009-04-16T11:25:52Z</updated>
    <content type="html">&lt;a href="http://pics.livejournal.com/burningmissive/pic/00001ww4/"&gt;&lt;img src="http://pics.livejournal.com/burningmissive/pic/00001ww4/s320x240" width="320" height="220" border="0" /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;my new DK Cleveland&lt;br /&gt;so stoked on finally getting my bike&lt;br /&gt;tore up Beacon for a little while with Dean last night after the purchase&lt;br /&gt;who knew I'm a better rider than I ever was a skateboarder.&lt;br /&gt;Although I will admit, I look a little absurd on a bike&lt;br /&gt;couldn't sleep I just wanted to go ride more.&lt;br /&gt;Tonight, Sloatsburg function with Nic and Jesse</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:burningmissive:80287</id>
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    <title>On not knowing how to fix it</title>
    <published>2009-03-25T20:48:04Z</published>
    <updated>2009-03-25T20:48:04Z</updated>
    <content type="html">I don't come on here anymore, it's too tempting of a way to pour salt in already painful wounds. I haven't deleted it because I think I actually did write some interesting shit here and I don't want to just have all of that go away. Panic attacks are at an all time high as I can't drive in the car for more than 10 minutes without having one. And these aren't your "oh I'm stressed out and it gets hard to breath cause I'm a pussy" panic attacks, these are legit "completely hyperventilating oh my fucking god, is this the one that takes me out" panic attacks. Speaking of which on the way home I had ne, pulled over and hyperventilated till I guess I passed out, I woke up to the sound of a Semi honking it's horn as I was pulled over on the shoulder and basically in the grass. That is not the best sounds I have ever woken up to in my life.&lt;br /&gt;At least it's all over though right, I suppose I should be thankful that all true colors have been exposed, and that I will no longer be asked to sit in my room pining for someone who...you know what, it's not even worth it to say. She's gone, I'm better for it, and hopefully she is too. &lt;br /&gt;the question now is what's the next move...&lt;br /&gt;the band is doing fucking phenomenal...&lt;br /&gt;we are playing Chicago next week...&lt;br /&gt;we have multiple shows with Fireworks coming up...&lt;br /&gt;the record is selling...&lt;br /&gt;big show in Philly in May...&lt;br /&gt;but even with all that, I miss putting my arms around someone who either cares or, for a short time con's me into believing she cares about me at all.&lt;br /&gt;Talked to Susan for about an hour last night about taking stock in your life and your overall happiness with your position in life.&lt;br /&gt;I love my job&lt;br /&gt;I love my band&lt;br /&gt;I am genuinely happy with who I am for the first time in a long time&lt;br /&gt;I guess I don't really have alot to bitch about when I put it like that.</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:burningmissive:80010</id>
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    <title>Merry F-in Christmas Dustin Wallace...</title>
    <published>2008-12-23T23:22:49Z</published>
    <updated>2008-12-23T23:22:49Z</updated>
    <content type="html">I don't know what to do anymore&lt;br /&gt;I fucked up the best relationship I've ever had&lt;br /&gt;worst part is, I didn't even realize I was doing it&lt;br /&gt;and that's my problem, that's the thing I do&lt;br /&gt;I get my head lodged so far up my own ass,&lt;br /&gt;I completely lose sight of things that are important to me that aren't music&lt;br /&gt;I am 27 years old and have just been dumped for the first time&lt;br /&gt;these are coping skills I should have developed roughly by age 18&lt;br /&gt;but I never had to&lt;br /&gt;cause music always meant more and having a guitar around my neck always made any leftover feelings disappear, and this time it doesn't work.&lt;br /&gt;the only time in my life I felt better than when I was on stage was when I was with her&lt;br /&gt;and I didn't even realize it&lt;br /&gt;I didn't have a fucking clue&lt;br /&gt;this year I deserve the hell I have put myself in.&lt;br /&gt;I can't fucking believe what I've done here&lt;br /&gt;seriously&lt;br /&gt;I talk all this shit about how smart I am&lt;br /&gt;how much I care&lt;br /&gt;and the one person who really deserves it (not that all of you don't)&lt;br /&gt;I not only don't show it to&lt;br /&gt;I fucking hide from&lt;br /&gt;cause I am fucking scared&lt;br /&gt;for all my posi bullshit posturing I am a terrified 5 year old huddled in a corner&lt;br /&gt;I love her&lt;br /&gt;that's all there is&lt;br /&gt;above everything else&lt;br /&gt;and I will do anything to fix myself, cause she deserves better&lt;br /&gt;and maybe he is.&lt;br /&gt;I'm not right now, but I'm going to be&lt;br /&gt;cause it's time to stop hiding behind what happened when I was a kid&lt;br /&gt;I'm not the wounded fucking kid anymore&lt;br /&gt;and there is a difference between sad and pathetic&lt;br /&gt;and I've allowed myself to become the latter&lt;br /&gt;I'm the adult version who is/was too scared to face up to it&lt;br /&gt;I am going to push myself&lt;br /&gt;and this will be the hardest year thus far&lt;br /&gt;but I'm going to do it, cause I need it&lt;br /&gt;cause I need her&lt;br /&gt;and I can see it all now&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;This will be the first bad Christmas of my life&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;It's about time I start getting what I deserve</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:burningmissive:79674</id>
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    <title>Sometimes to do the things you love, you leave the ones you love behind</title>
    <published>2008-08-20T13:38:08Z</published>
    <updated>2008-08-20T13:38:08Z</updated>
    <content type="html">I need some time to myself to figure everything out, but my life currently doesn't allow for time to myself.</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:burningmissive:79543</id>
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    <title>You're Gonna Die All Alone</title>
    <published>2008-08-14T13:42:10Z</published>
    <updated>2008-08-14T13:42:10Z</updated>
    <content type="html">Tonight we might actually finish the vocals on "Thug Jitsu" which has been re-titled "Thrill Your Idols" (well done Dala). We started recording this song a couple months again and it is the second of two songs With The Punches has demo'd. Now as we are approaching our first show, we will get a chance to post a second song, which I could not be more stoked about.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Saw H2O last week, finally. Amazing, haven't seen a set that good since Lifetime.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Last night we had Dan from Just Surrender on the radio show, dude is really funny, and it was rad having a kid from a band whose records I have bought get ahold of us cause he happened to like what we do and then come up and hang on the show, not to mention he posts bulletins from time to time promoting my band.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;This weekend will mostly be spent rehearsing in Jersey with Shane, Joe, Jesse, Adam, and I, though there will be a slight pause so I can go play this piece of shit show in the middle of nowhere with bands I couldn't care less about.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Next week on the radio show, gonna try to interview a ton of new bands who are really good, might get a little hairy</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:burningmissive:79334</id>
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    <title>Head Above Water This Year Boys</title>
    <published>2008-05-29T17:29:42Z</published>
    <updated>2008-05-29T17:29:42Z</updated>
    <content type="html">This week has been a little crazy, I'm holding it together but I feel like I'm visably worn. Last week was a long one for me&lt;br /&gt;---------------------------------------------------------&lt;br /&gt;Monday - Work, Measured In Grey Rehearsal&lt;br /&gt;Tuesday - Work, With The Punches Rehearsal in Jersey&lt;br /&gt;Wednesday - Work, Radio Show 6pm-10pm&lt;br /&gt;Thursday - No Work, Drive to Long Island, play with The Sleeping&lt;br /&gt;Friday - Show at The Polish Club with Transit, Soul For Sale, and The Black Hand&lt;br /&gt;Saturday - Studio with MIG working on the new record, &lt;br /&gt;Sunday - Studio with MIG working on the new record, go see mom and dad&lt;br /&gt;Monday - Barbeque with Virginia's Family, Barbeque with my family, Indiana Jones with Virginia&lt;br /&gt;Tuesday - Work, With The Punches rehearsal, go see Mom and Dad&lt;br /&gt;Wednesday - Work, Radio Show 6pm - 10pm&lt;br /&gt;-----------------------------------------------------------&lt;br /&gt;Today is a rare one, just work, then I can go home and start working on the artwork for MIG record, unless I get sidetracked by any number of things that could pop up. Then tomorrow I have MIG rehearsal, then Saturday I have off theoretically, and Sunday we are back in the studio to do the vocals on the record. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Yesterday I messaged Jim (Heather Grube's boyfriend) about maybe doing some artwork for the record. He's a nice dude and I have to believe that anyone in a relatioship with Heather for this long must be pretty rad, Heather is a good judge of character, she'll know if you're a shitbag. Jim did the artwork on The Black Hand's last record "More To Life" and it was definately different, so I figured between him and me, and the rest of my friends who are designers, we should get something pretty rad going on.</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:burningmissive:78892</id>
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    <title>One of my more hilarious moments</title>
    <published>2008-05-02T15:47:41Z</published>
    <updated>2008-05-02T15:47:41Z</updated>
    <content type="html">Supervisor: What are we gonna do with you Dustin?&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Me: Give me raises?&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Supervisor: No&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Me: Give me raisins?</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:burningmissive:78677</id>
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    <title>New Music Mixtape</title>
    <published>2008-04-24T15:03:49Z</published>
    <updated>2008-04-24T15:03:49Z</updated>
    <content type="html">1. Astronautalis - Oceanwalk&lt;br /&gt;2. RJD2 - Work It Out&lt;br /&gt;3. Sharon Jones &amp; The Dap-Kings - 100 Days, 100 Nights&lt;br /&gt;4. MURS &amp; 9th Wonder - Yesterday &amp; Today&lt;br /&gt;5. The Wonder Years - When Keeping It Real Goes Wrong&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I decided to keep it short today&lt;br /&gt;in the hopes that maybe you check out 1 or all of the songs here&lt;br /&gt;I can honestly say that all 5 are really great&lt;br /&gt;Let me know what you think, and then post your own 5 songs to check out</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:burningmissive:78360</id>
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    <title>Work, Record, Write, Dream, Love, Break, Cancer, High-Five, Sleep</title>
    <published>2008-04-24T04:38:26Z</published>
    <updated>2008-04-24T04:38:26Z</updated>
    <content type="html">I guess you can tell where I'm at in life by the amount I post in my LJ. I miss doing this every night and talking about all the inane shit that would happen to me, leaving lightly veiled insults and challenges for those I knew would read it, and even getting the occasional note from someone who didn't know me and stumbled onto it, and found something they like or hated. But to be honest, I nearly don't have the kind of time I require to rant about whatever bug has crawled up my ass (and possibly dragged a huge stick up there with it) these days. I'm gonna breakdown what my life is like for you, and this is not complaining in any way, you will be hard pressed to find a happier dude these days.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;1.Work&lt;br /&gt;    I work at a place called Copart, it's a salvage auction, I do office work for some mo'fuckers who sell fucked up cars to companies for whatever ungodly reason they might want them, I deal with chainsmoking russian and nigerian tow truck drivers all day. I also get to spend a minimum of 7 hours a day in the same building with my best friend in the world. No matter how shitty a job it is, that one fact right there makes it woth my weight in gold. Now I even get to listen to music, at a low volume, which makes it even better. The work is thoughtless and while I miss the creativity of graphic design, I love the steady pay and never having to argue over fucking typography with someone who couldn't tell Arial Black from Helvetica.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;2. Music&lt;br /&gt;    I started a new band called With The Punches, we play pop punk...and I love it. I don't really give a shit if everyone I know thinks it's shit or that I handle my business poorly, I love these songs and I love the dudes I play them with, plus, Jesse sings, so it's more hangs with the best friend...can't beat it&lt;br /&gt;www.myspace.com/withthepunches&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;    I also play guitar in my band Measured In Grey, and in the last year I have gotten to open for four of my favorite bands around (Daggermouth, The Loved Ones, Bayside, and Four Year Strong). I have a blast and we get onstage and kill shit. If you like H2O or The Misfits, you might like us, if not, that's cool, we're still friends. But this weekend we are playing our first Boston show, then Sunday, playing right before the headliner at The Chance, which I have never done, I could not be happier about all of this.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;    I am still hunting down the idea of a band that is like Motown Vs. The Roots, I tried once before but as with all things, I wasn't stoked being the leader so I bowed out, I'm trying again with some different dudes, I'll let you know how this goes&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;    As always I still want to be Kanye West, a lack of time has held me back from putting any of my creations out, but someday I'll get it all right&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;3. Love/Cancer&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;   For those who may not know, I met and have been dating a very lovely young woman named Virginia, who is amazing to me. I don't want to get too lofty about being with her, but let's just say that it fucking rules. She has unfortunately been diagnosed with Diffuse B Cell Lymphoma...neither of us were ready to hear that. But we are both soldiering along to a chorus of cancer jokes we sing to each other...Jessecat is Not Amused, but we do it anyway. With cancer comes all the fears about people not being a part of your life anymore&lt;br /&gt;and it scares the fucking shit out of me. But she will beat is and we'll get through this and then I can tell people my girlfriend kicked the shit out of cancer.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;4. Break&lt;br /&gt;    &lt;br /&gt;    I folded my knee in the wrong direction a couple months ago during a Measured In Grey show, it was the most painful experience of my life, I hope to avoid doing it again, but at the same time, nothing will keep me from jumping around while playing music. It's about 80% right now, that's acceptable, I have good days with it and bad days...oh well&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;My life rules, I have amazing friends, families, and I am really happy with the dude that I am. I'm gonna go play Amped snowboarding, listen to Sharon Jones and The Dap-Kings and play with my dog Bob. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;If you are reading this, I hope you have a smile on your face&lt;br /&gt;and I wish you nothng but the best&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Love,&lt;br /&gt;Dustin J. Wallace</content>
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    <title>My Feelings On Keeping Your "Feelings" To Yourself</title>
    <published>2008-03-05T23:40:26Z</published>
    <updated>2008-03-05T23:40:26Z</updated>
    <content type="html">I'm less and less stoked on hearing people's opinions of me these days.&lt;br /&gt;about how I'm &lt;br /&gt;Immature&lt;br /&gt;Directionally Impared&lt;br /&gt;Snobbish&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;as a matter of fact, do what my mother said to me as a kid "Say something nice, or be ready to get punched in the mouth" &lt;br /&gt;I've never met a person who didn't have any flaws, and most have several (myself absolutely included), but with that being the case I can't say that I can think of a single person who has a right to talk shit on or to me.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I like my new job at the auto auction, and....it's really nice not being flat fucking broke all the time, the thought that this year I might actually get myself out of the debt I've been carrying since like 02 blows my mind.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;With The Punches is getting moving, slowly but surely...the nice thing about that is that I have the time to write a song and then go back and make sure it's actually up to the level I want them to be at, thus far we have one song that I love. Plus we're gonna be covering Hand Grenade by The Movielife which I am way stoked on&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I think I'm done for now, I'll try to be a little better about updating, but really it's not a promise I can make these days, especially since I'm actually sleeping.....so weird</content>
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    <title>An Open Letter To Everyone</title>
    <published>2008-01-27T10:30:03Z</published>
    <updated>2008-01-27T10:30:03Z</updated>
    <content type="html">Tonight I got punched in the face.&lt;br /&gt;I am 26 years-old and during an altercation between my drunk friends and two other drunk kids, I got hit and my glasses got scratched. I don't really care about getting hit, while I am by no means a tough guy, I have been in my fair share of fights and been hit much harder in spots that hurt much more, I am more upset about my glasses getting messed up since I sorta need them to see. I don't blame the kids in the fight for fighting. My problem is with myself and the position I have walked myself into. &lt;br /&gt;    I'm straight-edge, and very proud of it, I am notoriously a designated driver for my friends and have always maintained the same rules. Don't throw up in the car, and don't do anything that will require me to explain anything to the police. I don't have a problem with people who drink. I have made the decision that drinking is not something I want to be a part of my life for my varied reasons, but they are my reasons, not yours, and I don't expect or pass judgment on anyone who chooses otherwise.&lt;br /&gt;     What I have a problem with is foolish pride. If you aren't sure exactly what that intails, it's what makes you say things like "No fuck that, that dude called me a cocksucker, I'm gonna kick the shit out of him"&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;...really bro ?&lt;br /&gt;...a cocksucker ?&lt;br /&gt;...as in "one who puts other dudes penis's in their mouths" ?&lt;br /&gt;...are you mad cause you actually do put dudes penis's in your mouth ?&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;     I am as immature a dude as I have ever known in alot of ways (I'm uber-sensitive, insensitive towards the feelings of other, I still play and listen to punk rock, and I like video games and transformers more than I like fancy dinners and  going to jazz concerts), but if I can say one thing about myself, it's that there is not a phrase in the english language that is going to make me need to fight someone. If you call me a cocksucker in a room full of my friends, I'm going to say "fuck yes I am" and move on with my day, cause quite frankly, your attempt at an insult doesn't mean shit to me. If you call my mother, sisters, girlfriend, best friend, or cousin a whore, I am simply going to get up and politely excuse myself from the room. I don't need to fight, I have nothing to prove to you or to myself. I know the dude I am and that guy likes having all his teeth, hates the emergency room, and would prefer to not spend the evening in jail.&lt;br /&gt;    I am not trying to lecture anyone here, just simply pose a question&lt;br /&gt;               Is fighting ever really worth it?&lt;br /&gt;               If so, why?&lt;br /&gt;               What can you possibly gain from it?&lt;br /&gt;Please don't respond with "self-respect", cause I respect myself, and possibly more with each passing day. &lt;br /&gt;      Is that really what you think you need to do in order to respect yourself?&lt;br /&gt;      Are someone else's words really that influential over your opinion of yourself?&lt;br /&gt;      And if yes to those questions, why?&lt;br /&gt;I understand the drinking thing, it's fun, you get to blow of steam and for a couple hours on a weekend, you get to stop second guessing everything you do and just enjoy this life and the company of your friends. If you wanna spend the night throwing up, by all means, please not on me and not in my car.&lt;br /&gt;     I love my friend and have maintained forever that I have some of the best friends a dude could ever ask for, I never want to see any of you in jail or the hospital. Please take care of yourselves and each other.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Sincerely,&lt;br /&gt;It's my journal, you know who wrote it</content>
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    <title>burningmissive @ 2008-01-26T15:14:00</title>
    <published>2008-01-26T20:26:00Z</published>
    <updated>2008-01-26T20:26:00Z</updated>
    <content type="html">Posts are few and far between these days, just haven't really needed to get anything off my chest lately in such a public forum. But something is def buggin me lately, and it's the fact that my older sister Amanda and I haven't hung out since before Christmas. I know she's busy, married, teaching, teaching at the gym, but seriously, like won't even return messages. It's one thing to never return any messages cause I can just write you off as being shitty about that or being a douchebag, but two weeks ago she sends me a weird text telling me she loves me, then I get all panicked and call her and she tells me she just had a rough week, but I tell her I love her too and that I want to hang out since it's been so long since I saw her. Then I stop by her house last week and she's not there but never calls me or sends me any acknowledgement that I give a rats ass about her. then I text her like 5 times this week and don't hear anything until yesterday when she sends me a text saying she's not sure if she's coming to the bayside show and that she's having sort of a tough time right now. Then I text her today about coming to hang for a bit and get nothing back again. &lt;br /&gt;This shit is just annoying to me, like I don't mind being blown off, but at least let me know you are OK if you are going to do so. The fact that my big sister is such a huge person in my life makes it so much worse. I don't really care if she comes to my show or not, she's a school teacher, I understand she's gotta think about getting up at 5am , I just want to hang out with her and see her a little bit.&lt;br /&gt;other than that shit, I'm just dealing with trying to sell these tickets and the fact that kids are little assholes in the scene. Whatever &lt;br /&gt;fuck everybody today&lt;br /&gt;sick of your shit.&lt;br /&gt;tonight I am going home and going to my room to play halo3 and eat shitty food and not dick around on myspace.&lt;br /&gt;ugh</content>
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    <title>burningmissive @ 2008-01-08T16:38:00</title>
    <published>2008-01-08T21:40:24Z</published>
    <updated>2008-01-08T21:40:24Z</updated>
    <content type="html">&lt;img src="http://buzznet-87.vo.llnwd.net/assets/users16/squidinc/default/Bayside--large-msg-119982759501.jpg" /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Yeah&lt;br /&gt;I saw &lt;br /&gt;Have Heart&lt;br /&gt;Crime In Stereo&lt;br /&gt;Hope Conspiracy&lt;br /&gt;Paint It Black&lt;br /&gt;on Sunday Night&lt;br /&gt;some dude in Philly recognized me from my band&lt;br /&gt;and today...we find out we're opening for Bayside and 4YS.&lt;br /&gt;Tell me 2008 isn't gonna be my year</content>
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  <entry>
    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:burningmissive:77258</id>
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    <title>Christmas Post</title>
    <published>2007-12-26T14:58:43Z</published>
    <updated>2007-12-26T14:58:43Z</updated>
    <content type="html">Gleaming The Cube DVD (So Stoked, got me into skateboarding, RODNEY fucking MULLEN)&lt;br /&gt;Ramones: End Of The Century DVD&lt;br /&gt;The Beatles: Abbey Road&lt;br /&gt;The Beatles: White Album&lt;br /&gt;Minor Threat: Complete Discography&lt;br /&gt;Henry Rollins: Think Tank&lt;br /&gt;Lifetime Hoodie   (First Lifetime Hoodie, first hoodie present ever)&lt;br /&gt;Ramones Rocket To Russia T-Shirt&lt;br /&gt;XBox360 (Are you fucking kidding, so awesome)&lt;br /&gt;Halo 3   (AMAZING)&lt;br /&gt;Bioshock  (INSANE)&lt;br /&gt;Book on Straight Edge&lt;br /&gt;Guitar Strings&lt;br /&gt;Barnes &amp; Noble Gift Card&lt;br /&gt;Socks&lt;br /&gt;Boxer Briefs&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;This Christmas was amazing, got to see my mom and dad and bought my dad a strat&lt;br /&gt;Jesse is home and I get to hang with my best friend as much as I like&lt;br /&gt;I got to spend my first Christmas with Virginia&lt;br /&gt;Mom liked the M.A.S.H. Box set we got her, which I was pretty stoked about&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Tonight is Radio show for a little while, then FOUR YEAR STRONG! at the Chance&lt;br /&gt;I'm fuckin stoked, get to go meet my doppleganger</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:burningmissive:76876</id>
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    <title>Re-Post from myspace....cause I'm that stoked on it</title>
    <published>2007-12-13T17:16:34Z</published>
    <updated>2007-12-13T17:16:34Z</updated>
    <content type="html">Last night, for the first time in months I sat down with my strat, and I can honestly say that playing that guitar makes me a better musician. My strat was the second guitar I ever owned and the first I actually paid for...well, my mom and dad loaned me the money for it, but I paid it all back. The day I got it from Alto Music, they actually brought me two left-handed strats, the Squier and a more expensive Fender. I actually wanted the Fender, cause I wanted the Fender Logo on the headstock, but I played them both and the Fender felt cheap and like it wasn't made very well, the Squier felt right, and sounded great. The greatest amount of my guitar playing has been on that guitar and it has never let me down. That guitar took me from my bedroom playing with Stevie Ray Vaughan and Eric Clapton records to playing with Slam Allen, Murali Coryell, and Pat O'Shea. That guitar has gotten me through some of the roughest moments in my life and always has something to say as soon as I pick it up. It has been bled on, sweated on, and cried on. For my birthday my Dad bought me Fender Texas Special pickups for it, cause at that point, all I wanted was to sound exactly like Stevie Ray Vaughan, I couldn't really tell the difference. I guess that was when I knew I would never sound like anyone but me. Don't get me wrong, I steal Clapton and SRV riffs like it's my job, but I don't think I sound like either one in particular. I play in a punk band now but I will always be a blues player, and I couldn't be happier about that.&lt;br /&gt;You are probably asking yourself "So What is The Point of All This?"&lt;br /&gt;....there is none&lt;br /&gt;but I fucking love my guitar</content>
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    <title>burningmissive @ 2007-12-10T12:45:00</title>
    <published>2007-12-10T17:50:06Z</published>
    <updated>2007-12-10T17:50:06Z</updated>
    <lj:music>The Wonder Years</lj:music>
    <content type="html">I'm busy at work playing a game of Cat &amp; Mouse with my company's IT guy, nice kid and all but blocking my sites...I dunno. Maybe not the guy you want to play this game with, especially considering I was studying computers when this kid was shitting his daipers. Oh well, same old same old, I've had to go through this shit at every company I've ever worked at, this just happens to be one where I will not tolerate it. &lt;br /&gt;I stay at this job because it provides me the time to bullshit on the internet while at work.&lt;br /&gt;Oh well, this week should be fun&lt;br /&gt;4 Days till Dala&lt;br /&gt;Stoked&lt;br /&gt;Hey Austin, get your black ass ready, in less than a week I'll be inside you&lt;br /&gt;hahahaha</content>
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    <title>Post Tourdom Depression</title>
    <published>2007-12-06T00:44:07Z</published>
    <updated>2007-12-06T00:44:07Z</updated>
    <content type="html">Ugh&lt;br /&gt;Not being on the road sucks balls, I miss sleeping on floors&lt;br /&gt;Being on stages every night, and starving&lt;br /&gt;The shows last week were great but unfortunately just made me remember &lt;br /&gt;how much more I like being out than I do being home.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Two weeks till I get to fly to Texas to pick up Jesse.&lt;br /&gt;One last T2L Show&lt;br /&gt;Get to see alot of my old friends who I don't get to see too much&lt;br /&gt;And I'll be there for a few days, so hopefully I'll get to see everyone&lt;br /&gt;spend a good amount of time at Waterloo haha</content>
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    <id>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:burningmissive:76285</id>
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    <title>Home from the Sea of Tranquility and The Land of No "Smoking in Public Places" Laws</title>
    <published>2007-11-26T18:54:21Z</published>
    <updated>2007-11-26T18:54:21Z</updated>
    <content type="html">PA Trip was fun&lt;br /&gt;lots of good Mandy and Hoppy hangs&lt;br /&gt;introduced V to the fam, and the fam to V&lt;br /&gt;spent most of the trip beating up Jacob and Conner&lt;br /&gt;or fixing Aunt Linda's network&lt;br /&gt;her new iMac is gorgeous...love that thing&lt;br /&gt;Went out and played with Steve Vuich, I've been playing music with that guy for 10 years...scary&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Oh, final birthday tally breaks down like this:&lt;br /&gt;Engraved Pocket Watch - V&lt;br /&gt;The Black Donnelly's Complete Series DVD - Fam&lt;br /&gt;The Transformers Movie DVD (Origional) - V&lt;br /&gt;Firefly Complete Series DVD - V&lt;br /&gt;Sharks Kill Everything 4 DVD Set - Fam&lt;br /&gt;Skateboarding Is Not A Crime Book - V&lt;br /&gt;Adobe Creative Suite 3 - Jon Lu&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;...pretty awesome, I was pretty stoked&lt;br /&gt;Got alot of DVD's to get down on in the coming weeks&lt;br /&gt;still haven't managed to start the first season of The Cosby Show&lt;br /&gt;The Black Donnelly's should have never been cancelled, it's an abomination that it was pulled off the air</content>
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    <title>Busy couple weeks comin up</title>
    <published>2007-11-18T22:24:22Z</published>
    <updated>2007-11-18T22:24:22Z</updated>
    <content type="html">Turnin 26&lt;br /&gt;Going to PA for Thanksgiving, with Virginia, never taken a girl home before....weird&lt;br /&gt;Going to SC to play a couple shows with Stretch Arm Strong&lt;br /&gt;Going to TX to pick up Vadala, havin my boy home&lt;br /&gt;Starting our new band, which is still nameless&lt;br /&gt;I'm so stoked on the next two months&lt;br /&gt;oh and at some point MIG will be going to record again&lt;br /&gt;The show the other night was a blast, short but good.&lt;br /&gt;bummed we didn't get to play kids got heart or blade of a thousand truths but we did debut Friday The 16th Part IV which was not as bad as it could have been&lt;br /&gt;I want to know what my birthday presents are and it's driving me insane....I hate waiting for presents, I know, almost 30 I should not be a lunatic about presents, but alas I still am, oh well</content>
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    <title>Last Night I saw the most adorable thing in history</title>
    <published>2007-11-02T20:37:49Z</published>
    <updated>2007-11-02T20:37:49Z</updated>
    <content type="html">My dog laying with his head resting on my arm and my cat curled up in a ball between his front and hind legs.&lt;br /&gt;I woke up to this at 3am&lt;br /&gt;and even at 3am I went &lt;br /&gt;"Awwwwwww"&lt;br /&gt;I wanted to take a picture but they both would have gotten up if I had gone for my camera&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I am in NY&lt;br /&gt;Lifetime and Against Me! are in Austin this weekend&lt;br /&gt;If you are in Austin and reading this, go to the show&lt;br /&gt;and dive off the stage one time for me</content>
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    <title>finally a real post, and back to locking them, to keep prying eyes out</title>
    <published>2007-11-01T20:56:22Z</published>
    <updated>2007-11-01T20:56:22Z</updated>
    <lj:music>Set It Straight - Live Your Heart and Never Follow</lj:music>
    <content type="html">Man, haven't posted a decent post on here in a while&lt;br /&gt;Things have been sorta crazy, today in particular was utter lunacy. Girlfriend and I were up late watching horror movies cause we are both sorta tards. Poor girl had to get up at 7am so she could get to work on time. I would love to say that I was a gentleman and got up with her, walked her out to her car, told her how much she really means to me and send her one her merry way with a smile on her face.&lt;br /&gt;I stayed in bed...&lt;br /&gt;In my defense, it was cold and I was for reals sleepy cause I couldn't sleep last night and was up till like 3:30am.&lt;br /&gt;This week was fucking magic.&lt;br /&gt;She came on Friday and left Thursday morning&lt;br /&gt;That's the kind of week I can handle&lt;br /&gt;Even though week has been a madhouse this week with elections coming up and everyone needing new ads done all the time and people wanting insane changes to their shit, but knowing I was going home to her each night def made the week a bit easier to deal with.&lt;br /&gt;The "Halloween" Show last Saturday was a fucking disasterpiece&lt;br /&gt;I dunno how drunk exactly dudes were but someone (I think Sean) was playing a half a step out of key for most of the set, then we lost steam fast, halfway through the set we decided to abandon ship, play three last songs&lt;br /&gt;Kids Got Heart&lt;br /&gt;Blade of A Thousand Truths&lt;br /&gt;Bombs Away&lt;br /&gt;...it was half assed by this point, no one seemed like they really wanted to be doing what we were doing, and no joke that is a fucking crushing feeling. About halfway through Bombs Away, I notice that Johnny's wife Willow is crying hysterically...Johnny is staring at her and paying almost no attention to the song so it's kinda like he's mumbling the words....sweet. We wrap up the song and go over to Ian's to get changed for the misfits set. Johnny goes to Willow. When we get downstairs, we see Johnny and Willow still talking then they walk over to us, get in the car and Johnny say's "this isn't gonna happen". Which at this point I was actually sorta grateful for, cause I just wanted to go home. But after about 4 minutes of the rest of us trying to figure out what the fuck we're gonna do, Johnny gets out of the car and say's "fuck it, we're doing this" and we go OK and head for the bar, we walk in get our instruments and start making all this fucked up random noise....but....Where's Johnny?&lt;br /&gt;Apperently Johnny then got back into his car and took off. Jerry from The Fiendz and Rygil sang the misfits songs but my heart wasn't in it, Brad's wasn't, and I don't think Sean's was. Ian insisted we do it, and I didn't want to make shit worse so I played, but I def wasn't happy about it, and from what I hear it showed.&lt;br /&gt;I finished the set and went home to be with my girlfriend and get some sleep. &lt;br /&gt;It was the worst show of my life.&lt;br /&gt;I've played shitty shows, I've given shitty performances (Antone's, Cornell, etc...) but this was the most miserable experience I have ever had with a guitar.&lt;br /&gt;Really can't wait for Jesse to get home so we can get our band started. &lt;br /&gt;Oh yeah, clearly I am not going to pick him up since I am here typing.&lt;br /&gt;There were some things he had to take care of first, so hopefully a few more weeks and I will get to go pick him up.&lt;br /&gt;Aside from that, I put in for a job at EVR and with the management firm that handles both Darkest Hour and Lifetime....awesome</content>
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    <title>a couple years in the making</title>
    <published>2007-10-23T08:11:30Z</published>
    <updated>2007-10-23T08:11:30Z</updated>
    <content type="html">&lt;a href="http://dustinj.carbonmade.com/"&gt;http://dustinj.carbonmade.com/&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;my portfolio is finally up&lt;br /&gt;I am proud.&lt;br /&gt;John Lu actually told me he was impressed with some of my work.&lt;br /&gt;My life is getting better and better every day.&lt;br /&gt;let me know what you guys think</content>
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    <title>WDE</title>
    <published>2007-10-12T17:43:29Z</published>
    <updated>2007-10-12T17:43:29Z</updated>
    <lj:music>Common - Be</lj:music>
    <content type="html">Sorry I've been ignoring you LJ, not on purpose, shits just been a little crazy.&lt;br /&gt;Let me catch you up.&lt;br /&gt;I met Henry Rollins.&lt;br /&gt;Yup, met my fucking hero&lt;br /&gt;and the dude was so incredible and nice, like I've met down to earth famous people, people who have not let their shit go to their heads, but Rollins, not only has his shit not gone to his head, he is just a normal guy, telling him that the shit he does/has done has had a profound effect on my life clearly makes the dude a little uncomfortable, which I knew it would, but fuck it I had to say it. The guy has been the model for my life since I heard A Rollins In The Rye driving to Rachel's house after work, oh so many years ago. He signed my book, took a picture with me and I kept myself from nerding out too hard, hell I even played it cool enough that some Rollins Nerd girl started hitting on me (woo-hoo!). I am forever in debt to Gne and Lotes now though, I mean, getting me on the guest list to see my hero talk for 3.5 amazin' hours and then I actually get to meet him, too much.&lt;br /&gt;The band is still kicking the shit out of the universe, and everyone seems pretty stoked on the poster I did for the show, and I'm not gonna lie, I'm stoked on it too...here it is&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a href="http://squidinc.buzznet.com/user/photos/posteryard/?id=19764851"&gt;&lt;img src="http://buzznet-68.vo.llnwd.net/assets/users16/squidinc/default/Posteryard--gallery-msg-119217083077.jpg" border="0" alt="Posteryard - Photo Hosted at Buzznet" title="Posteryard - Photo Hosted at Buzznet" /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Yeah, I drew that, let me know what you think. I owe Mr. Gebhardt a hearty thank you for telling me "you can't draw a straight line to save your lfe, let's try on the computer" changed my shit forever.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;In other news, life is fucking great,&lt;br /&gt;been working with Shawn from Instrumentalz on hip-hop stuff, cause he has sorta taken me under his wing since I got my MPC, loads of new stuff is in the works, hopefully I'll have something for everyone's listening pleasure soon.&lt;br /&gt;new Kanye West - Awesome&lt;br /&gt;new A Wilhelm Scream - Awesome&lt;br /&gt;new Talib Kweli - Awesome&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;what has two thumbs and the best life ever?&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;...this guy</content>
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